Viewing Yourself As Worthy

This is one of the hardest things for me.  I have the tendency to figure things out for myself... or really just going without instead of asking for help from people.  My treatment team worked with me on this a lot... they would make me ask for help and eventually I trusted that they would be there and could ask them... this took years.  When it comes to people outside of my treatment team I still have a hard time trusting them so I am able to ask for help or for a bit of support of my art.  So I have decided a challenge for myself would be to do some fundraising for this project which has been years in the making.  My challenge for the last few days was to create an email to send out to friends and family about my project and asking them to support me either by donating or sharing with friends.

I can't believe it but I actually accomplished that goal.  It took me sitting in front of the computer screen for a day going back and forth with myself if I was worthy of people's time or not.

I'm not sure where worthiness comes into it... I would love the confidence of those people who aren't afraid to ask for what they want.  I somehow tell myself I have to do it myself and no one will care about what I do.  Something I work on all the time and have improved on over the years... and especially living the life I live now.

My next challenge is to create a proposal for possible sponsors.  I keep telling myself I am not asking for a lot from sponsors and I have options for them that could pay off but I get stuck in my writing if I feel I'm just wasting people's time... I become invisible.  This is what I will be working on for the rest of the week.  I know I can do it because I believe in my project and believe I am making a difference in the world.

Wish me luck!